Saturday, February 3, 2018

Life's a piece of shit, then you die.

I am always fascinated with suicide. No, not that I'm interested in doing it, but more of a wonder - one of our brain's main purpose is to keep us comfortable and alive so how can a person just decide to end his/her life? What is also baffling is the fact that some of those who committed suicide were rich, famous, talented, beautiful. Depression sure is strange. 

With everything they have -looks, wealth, talent, power, they still feel lonely and forgotten? They have lovely homes, they live in quiet classy subdivisions or expensive condo units, they drive fast cars, they eat gourmet, they buy expensive clothes but they're depress. While here am I, trying to make ends meet, who eats tasteless gruel for breakfast and lunch, who cannot even date a girl - or even bring myself in a fancy restaurant, living in a small, square cell in a noisy, smelly city district and I get my clothes on cheap corner shops yet still clinging to life. I'm not judging them, but I'm just bewildered why so.

Maybe life is a shit, but it's better to struggle with all the shit - lights, smell, taste and noise than to have complete peace… in the dark, dead as a door knob.

Poor people also commits suicide. You just don't get to read it in the news ofter.

Sunday, January 21, 2018


Inside this old body is a little child. Yes, inside Jose, there is still a little kid named "John-John."   There's a big difference between the two: Jose is always gloomy, desperate, and looks at life in a boring way - necessities, priorities… all those dull, boring stuff.

John-John is different.  

Unlike Jose, John-John is always fascinated with life. There's always color, always something new to discover, something new to explore. For John-John, a smile is not just a temporary mask to cover a scowling face.

Little things are enough for John-John: a bug crawling on a leaf, a small dish of ice cream, children playing on the street, a game of tag, a candy bar. He always consider that there's always a room in life to be cheerful even when all the stakes are down and tears running down a face. He always believe that clouds will never cover the sun forever.  There's always another day to play. 

And the best thing about John-John? He always believe in dreams. He never loses hope. 

There's always a little child inside all of us. Sadly, we ignore this child. We always think that when we grow up, life become serious, matured, and routine. When we grow up we presume that the magic of life stops, that the curtain falls, the laughter becomes sullen. Life becomes all about decisions and obligations. We stop dreaming, we stop hoping. We stop being the care-free child that we once were. 

Perhaps we should start looking back and see the world in the child's eyes again so we can smile at life and to our selves. It's not really hard to do, just look up, smile to the world and unleash the child within you.

Sunday, January 14, 2018

Waking-Up Positive

The best way to start the day is something positive. I wake up at 4AM. I clean the house --- well, it's just really a small, square room but who cares? This square room is my home.

Before doing anything else, I give myself a 10 minutes of silence and I listen to a good motivational speech that I got in YouTube. I then visualize myself accomplishing all my chores for a day. If laziness will try to set-in, I always count backwards 5, 4 ,3, 2, 1 and VIOLA! I'm productive again. I scribble something in the computer. Read at least 10 pages from a book. Do some 20 minutes exercise together with my dogs, take a bath, eat breakfast while watching a TV morning show and by 6 AM I start working with my commissions.

I've been doing this morning routine for 4 days now and IT WORKS!

Thursday, January 4, 2018

Memories in Boxes

Yesterday I started to place most of my memories inside boxes. That doesn't mean that I'm going to throw them away. Storing things in boxes is just for safe-keeping. There are times that certain things, whether it's a physical, tangible object, an idea or a wish becomes more of a hindrance in your life. In such cases, you have to put them away - to place them where they won't be a stumbling-block while you move your life in a new direction. It's not because you don't like them, but it's more of placing the priorities first. It not because you want to forget them, but rather because you want to preserve them till the time you have settle your Moira.


Luck? In where I stand, there's no such thing as luck.

Nah, I'm not trying to imitate Obi-Wan Kenobi. It was just something that I was trying to think about lately. The year just ended and we are now starting to count our calendars again - 365 days. Each day is a different scenario and in each scenario, we aim to shoo away what we deem as ill fortune.

From the places of the stars to the shape of a fruit, people tend to create wild ideas on how to deter bad luck as if fruits and stars have some connection in your life. Maybe it's easier to think that 12 different rounded fruits will help make you rich than to imagine the hard work you need to do in order to get the same result.

A friend of mine once said to me that life is already preordain. Luck therefore is already destine to happen. You just need to boost it with charms and some ritual "Mambo-Jumbo." 
I disagree. There is no luck - life is something you earn. Your fate is intertwined with your hard actions together with wise decision and no fruits nor stars can do it for you.

Friday, December 29, 2017

Are we blogging to be...

Do we blog so we'll be heard or are we blogging so the corporate world will have a new access to cheaper ads? 

Wednesday, December 20, 2017

Something worth watching this coming MMFF

Ang Larawan is the film adaptation of Larawan, The Musical which is based on National Artist for Literature Nick Joaquin’s three-act English play A Portrait of the Artist as Filipino. First published in 1952, Joaquin’s work has been depicted numerous times on stage on screen and in English and Filipino—making it one of the most pedigreed literary works of the Philippines.

In 1997, Musical Theater Philippines (now Culturtain Musicat Productions Inc. ) headed by singer Celeste Legaspi and talent manager/producer Girlie Rodis staged Larawan, the first musical rendition of Joaquin’s great play, at the CCP. The elegaic play was transformed into a musical with a libretto written by National Artist for Theater Rolando Tinio and music created by iconic original Filipino music composer Ryan Cayabyab.

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